I'm struck every day by how much a part of our life Yoshi was. I'm constantly doing things or seeing things that remind me of him. Even stuff like going to bed at night. We had a nightly ritual of Greg sending him out for a pee, one of us moving his bed into the kitchen and then locking him up in there so he wouldn't sleep on the furniture or wake us up with his click clacking of nails on the hardwood. It still feels a bit strange to go to bed without doing all that. And when I leave the house I start to do a mental check to make sure everything is dog-proofed, and then I stop myself.
Today I went for a run and realized that my long-standing claim of loving to run by myself is not true. I love to run with my dog. It's just not the same without him.
Most of these painful reminders will continue to ease with time, but some of them (like running alone) won't really ease until we get another dog. Greg and I have both said we're going to wait until the kids are older, as we will be the first to admit that, despite the loss, not having a dog is more practical than having one. But I'm starting to think that "older" is maybe not as old as I originally thought. I really miss the canine company.
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sad news
I just read this, and went back and read your post about the loss of Yoshi. I didn't know, and I'm so sorry to hear it. He was a sweet dog, and I know exactly what you mean, having had some very special dogs in my life. You put it beautifully, and brought me to tears in doing so. Big hugs, m
Duke's friend
I have to admit that I am dreading going to your house or seeing you and then seeing the reaction of Duke when he realizes that Yoshi is not there. I haven't had the courage to read your post about the loss of Yosh because I know it will be painful. Yoshi was maybe not as big a part of our lives as he was your, but he was an important factor in our decision to get a dog in the first place.
I really miss him too and I think that I always will and I think that's ok.