It wasn’t a great day. I just didn’t seem to have any patience with Elliot, and that makes me feel crappy. Sure we’ve just moved, sure I’m feeling emotional about that, sure our house is a bit of a disaster, sure I’m tired, but it’s no excuse. I wish I could parent to my full abilities all the time. But in the moment, it doesn’t happen. Today I just felt angry whenever he cried, stalled, whined, didn’t listen, etc. And lately I feel like every second sentence is of the form: “If you keep [insert behaviour I don’t like], [insert consequence] will happen.”
And as I write this, he’s crying as Greg tries to get through the bedtime routine. I feel like crying myself.
This no napping thing isn’t helping, but when he naps he’s up until 9:30 or 10:00, which does NOT work for me.
Tonight I’m supposed to go for my run, but it’s the last thing I feel like doing.