nighttime fears

I’m afraid of the dark. Yup, 35 years old and afraid of the dark. More specifically, I’m afraid of how things look in the dark. Like mirrors, showers and open closets. Mirrors are the worst. When I go to the bathroom at night, I avoid looking in any mirrors in my path.

I don’t know where this fear comes from, but I’ve had it since childhood. As a child, before I went to bed I had to have my closet doors shut, under the bed checked (not by me) and the hall light on. In my bedroom now I’ve got a closet that doesn’t have a door, and it’s taken my a while to get used to it. And even worse, I can see the closet in the mirror in our bedroom, so it’s a double whammy.

So, what prompted this post? Well I recently saw an episode of CSI, where college students dressed in black hoodies and masks were attacking tourists. At one point, one of the victims looks into her make-up mirror right before she gets attacked. When I’m watching anything remotely scary on TV and someone’s looking in a mirror, I immediately look away, because that’s my worse nightmare, seeing something scary in the mirror. So I don’t know if they showed the attackers in the mirror — the idea of it was enough to freak me out.

So for the past ten days, I haven’t been able to go to the bathroom at night without turning on the bathroom light. The mirror and the dark is just too freaky a combination for me. I keep thinking of the CSI episode. And now that I’ve written this post it’ll probably take me even longer to get over it, as I’ve refreshed my memory.

And don’t get me started about what could be lurking behind that shower curtain in the middle of the night…

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